Baby Update

I keep trying to catch my blog up before I post anything new and it just isn't happening.  So many people have checked in to see how our baby is doing.  I figured I better do a quick update for all of those who are praying with us for this little one.
We had our big u/s the week of Christmas and it was such a gift to see a beautiful, healthy baby.  We are not finding out the gender much to every one's disgust, most especially Andy.  I felt so out of control with what happened with Emma I wanted to be able to control something with this pregnancy.  I knew I couldn't control when this baby would come, if baby was healthy or if baby lived.  As I sat and pondered this I knew that not finding out the gender was something I could control.
The other reason was I am honestly scared to know.  I felt like I let Andy down with the loss of Emma and I didn't want to have a black cloud over my pregnancy if this was a little boy.  I know I will love a little boy just as much as my other kids but I knew I would need to grieve the loss of never having a girl.  I figured this grief would be a lot easier to control and deal with when I saw the sweet little face looking back at me.  I know that sounds crazy but that is just the way my mind has been working.
I am currently 25 weeks so we have moved past the dreaded 23 weeks.  There was some crazy ironies with when 23 weeks hit so I was so glad to have it pass on the calendar without too much fan fair.
Baby is perfectly healthy and moving every where. I have found that the baby does not like me laying on my left side.  If I do I get kicked continuously until I roll over on my right side.  It has been fun to watch the boys feel the baby and talk to the baby.  It is crazy to think that in less than 4 months we will have a new baby at this house.  I am excited to meet this little one!!

This is an awful picture but I figured this post needed something.  I haven't taken my 24 week picture yet so this is back on Christmas day.  I was 20 weeks at this point.